so this week has been pretty interesting. sidenote: im under a blanket and wish i had a snuggly so my arms wouldnt be cold
. anywho, i feel like a lot has happened...kinda? maybe?
- after wasting a whole day, i ended up being very productive the next day. i did things that I had been putting off for a long time and it only took me an hour. if i just do things as they come, they won't pile up so much yano. most of it is admin stuff that i should just do.
- ok my finances. soooooooo the life of a grad student is one of poverty im convinced. especially when it is just you living. like....ugh, making less than 20,000 a year is not watsup. but furthering your education is. paul made me the most indepth budget ive ever seen. as soon as i started plugging money in, i was like omg how have i been living? like im continually making less than what i need or have been spending. and now i dont have the luxury of tapping into my parents or stipends cuz times are tough and im saving for South Africa (that will be my next bullet). but God has really been showing me that He is faithful. once i saw the budget i immediately began to worry, EXCESSIVELY. but all through this week God has been reminding me that He is in control and that He cares about me. For instance, Revelife had a post on desiring success so that you dont have to depend on God financially. i was like wow! so needed to read that. then i think the day before i did my budget i had just commented on Dellskers post about trusting that God would provide food for him. Little did i know the next day i would have to do the same! and i feel like it came up on Wednesday....hmmmm i think talking to my coworker about pursuing her God-given passion instead of staying at a job she doesnt really like. and THEN as im getting my hair braided yesterday, me and the stylist were talking bout how she got to NC cuz shes from DC, and how she had to leave her friends house because her friends 22 year old daughter was having her girlfriend sleep with her and spend the night; the stylist didnt want her young child to grow up around that thinking that was ok. i told her God would honor that even though it was tough to move out and support herself as a stylist and a single mom, but that God will take care of her. and today for ANQ we read Hebrews 11- the faith chapter! wow! im like omg Father, like You are really serious about me trusting You.
- so South Africa. another trust factor. so basically i've never had to write support letters for anything. but ive wriiten a letter and sent it to my church. i will also send it out to some fam and friends. but i was getting discouraged and was about to not go. but then i just went back through my devotional journal to see what God had said about it. and clearly repeatedly He said Go! Trust ME! I'll make a way for you to go! and i was like wow! im really glad i write down what He says cuz i obviously have a short term memory. So basically, I'm really working hard to go on this trip. I've applied for a summer job and will be working my butt off. also my spending habits are on lock. i had to cancel a trip home to md cuz i just cant afford to rent a car yano. like it just aint happenin.
- ummmerah.....what else....my dreams! so it was funny in Joel 2 it was prophesized that old men would dream dreams and young men would see visions. ok. my dreams have been kinda like hmmm...what was that all about? so ive been writing them down in the morning and really looking at how i can apply them to my day.
- ok...i think thats all for updates. but i have a gripe. so....why do Christians argue with atheists over issues and things of the Bible. like in Ephesians 3 Paul clearly says our understanding of salvation is the Mystery of Christ, which is revealed through the Spirit. like salvation or using the Bible as our absolute standard makes sense to us cuz of the Holy Spirit. trying to make people who do not have the Holy Spirit see our point of view is futile. they don't get it. nothing clicks. using scripture, for example, we understand because the Spirit reveals and interprets. to anyone else without the Spirit, its just kinda contradiction and folly. so my question is why waste time arguing with them if the Word says they won't get it anyway? maybe im just anti arguing in general, but really...cmon, whats the purpose? and then, iono...why cyberstalk Christian praise videos on youtube or blogs like Revelife just to like say God doesn't exist or im atheist so what you say is stupid...like i dont get it? why?
sorry for that rant at the end. its just pointless...iono...but today i will be productive. i am certain i will be! i had more to write but need to get on with my day. much love!
Comments (3)
this is really what's up. i know it feels good to feel like things are going somewhere, even if it's requiring more faith. such adventure! right? keep pressing forward, and be sure to send that support letter to EVERYONE you know, even the mailman. You'll be surprised who God uses to help you, even in times like this. The summer job is also a good look. No sense in not offering your own hands to the effort.
aww cool u wanting to go to S.A. You should stop by my country too, its just above it (Namibia) heheh. But yea, nice blog ... i love how you include bible verses in what you say ... really great inspiration.
have a great day!
blessings and love,
P.